June 28 (Day 180)

With how often I work during the week at the grocery store, my blog has become slightly boring and my life has become stressful. To spice up this post, I’ll share a really freaky dream I had last night, or at least what I hope was a dream. You see, sometimes I have dreams where I wake up paralyzed in the bed that I’m sleeping in, but I’m sure that it’s a dream because impossible things are happening to me. During this particular instance, a hand as white as paper was stroking my arm and tugging on me causing me to scream slightly which inevitably woke me up. Scary.

June 27 (Day 179)

More work. However, the evening was nice as I went and kept Robin company as she continues to house sit. The moon was absolutely incredible tonight. Not sure if you saw it, but it was gigantic. At least 5 times its normal size and a yellowish orange color with a glow beneath it. Unfortunately I suck at taking pictures of the moon, but you gotta believe me. It was spectacular.

June 26 (Day 178)

A long day of work was made 10x better with a pancake dinner. Shake and pour Bisquick pancakes  are 40 times better with fresh strawberries (unfortunately not from my garden and probably not organic) and some Blueberry syrup. 

June 25 (Day 177)

Today I went and House/ dog sat with Robin. We went on a really awesome athletic skating/ bikeriding adventure, and then we watched a boatload of movies and shows on Netflix. Pretty awesome day.

June 24 (Day 176)

Today was my day of rest. I sat around and did pretty much nothing all day. Lots of Netflix, internet, videogames, and food.
I didn’t get up until about 2 in the afternoon. It was nice, even though I felt completely unfulfilled. Here are some more green beans from my garden! Nature is still hard at work, even if I’m not…

ONE MORE THING! I found this awesome website today thanks to the Yogscast. It’s called geoguessr.com . It plops you off in the middle of google street view and then asks you to figure out where you are and gives you a score depending on how close you were. So freakin’ cool and sort of addicting. Give it a try and compete with your friends!

June 23 (Day 175)

Today was much better. I worked for a few hours and then went to Robin’s friend’s house for a little cookout get together and super moon viewing. (This was the actual night for the supermoon) We sat around and talked and I got to play with the most adorable pug, Gatsby. In case you didn’t already know, I really really really like pugs. A lot.

June 22 (Day 174)

Some days are just horrible. Think of it this way: It’s not the end of the world, but you feel as if the world ending might somehow make your terrible mood a bit more understandable to others.

That’s how today was for me. I hated everyone and everything for no particular reason other than the fact that I rather enjoyed hating everyone and everything. You see, There aren’t ever any truly negative emotions. Not in your own perspective anyways. If I’m angry or sad, it feels good to dwell on the anger or the sadness. My projection is angry or sad (obviously) to others, but really, on the inside, I rather enjoy being angry or sad, mostly because I really am angry or sad. Being happy when I’m actually some other emotion entirely is what doesn’t really feel that gratifying or good in anyway. Not sure if I’m making any sense but hopefully I’ve given you something to think about.

Also, this post was most obviously written a couple days later as I didn’t right something incredibly stupid like an angry or sad person might. Here’s the super moon. It was pretty cool, but I wonder if it contributed to or caused my awful mood…

June 21 (Day 173)

Something very interesting happened today… First, During my break at work I began reading Siddhartha. It’s a really great read so far and I really like it, but that’s rather ordinary I suppose. 

After work, as I was walking to my car, a rather scruffy looking fellow asked me for $1.30 to use as bus fare. Without even thinking about it, I gladly opened up my wallet, gave him the change, and went on my way. What was so strange was that I didn’t even think about it.

You see, I’m not trying to be like “I’M A NICE PERSON BECAUSE I GIVE HOBOS MONEYYYYY”

What I’m really trying to say is that if I had been paying attention, I probably would have thought twice about giving him the money. This is due to my rational human nature. AKA: greedy selfish bastard.

But, the more I thought about it, I realized that this is how things should be. People should be nice to other people without any incentive or suspicion. Now, this happened to me on accident as I didn’t mean to not pay attention, but in the end, I’m glad that my mind was elsewhere. Giving this guy $1.30 really made my day a whole lot better than it was before, and I have absolutely no idea why.

June 20 (Day 172)

Even more working all day. However, today, on my break, I read Jonathon Livingston Seagull in its entirety. (Pretty small book) but a nice little read. Sort of inspiring and easy to follow. Books like these are what remind me to stop being so negative about working and money issues and things all of the time. Anyways, I’m sort of rambling and not making any sense now, so goodnight. Time to do the same thing again tomorrow…. Oh yeah. Here’s my lettuce. It’s coming up too! 

June 19 (Day 171)

More working all day. In other news… My green beans have begun to grow off of the plants and are pretty huge! I can’t wait to eat some. We’re going to put some in tonight’s concoction!